Slowly Fading Away

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i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself i fucking binged and i hate myself

prettythinthoughts

The end goal, really, is to have everything I denied myself for years.
Being skinny will give me everything I wanted.
I’ll no longer be ashamed to have pictures taken of me as I enjoy myself with my friends. I’ll finally wear those clothes I promised myself; mom jeans, bodycon dresses, lacy underwear. I’ll wear those pretty tights, those tiny ripped knee jeans. Ankle boots. And I’ll feel good, so good, because I know that I deserve it. I worked hard for it.

thoughts that kept me awake last night (via prettythinthoughts)

waking up: telling myself I won't eat today
weighing myself: loathing my weight and lack of progress
showering: grabbing all my fat while imaging being skinny
eating breakfast: doesn't happen
eating lunch: doesn't happen
throughout the day: constantly think about food
eating dinner: binge... and binge some more
purging: hating myself, promising I will never do it again
going to sleep: imagining what it will it be like when Im skinny
dreaming: having nightmares about eating and dreaming of skinny
wake up and repeat.

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lilredbeanpole

Sometimes I feel good about myself. Then I walk past a mirror, and hate myself all over again.

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lonelyhumansworld

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Why did i let myself get this fat? I’m so ugly! i can feel my face getting fatter and fatter, and every time i look in the mirror i get more and more upset. I’m disgusting. I hate myself so much and just want to hide or die.

Source: tired-of-surviving

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16378) I constantly look at skinny girls’ bodies and always start to compare myself and ask myself why I don’t look that way.

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lilredbeanpole

Control

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I starve myself for control because nothing else I do is good enough. This gives me a purpose and a reason to push myself. I will never be the best or the smartest and everything bad is always my fault, but this gives me the control to chose who is the thinnest and I love it.

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skinnyskeleton

Control

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lavalampsanddiets

Sometimes I feel good about myself. Then I walk past a mirror, and hate myself all over again.

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How I distract myself from eating

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-paint
-listen to music
-sleep
-browse the Internet
-go on tumblr
-look at meanspo/thinspo
-wrote in a dairy
-write stories in general
-daydream
-watch YouTube
-read
-clean my room
-do laundry
-take a shower
-make my bed
-sing
-watch a movie
-go on social medias
-look at myself (that makes me lose my appetite)
-try new makeup
-look at amazon for things I can wear when I’m skinny
-exercise
-draw
-call someone
-think about my life
-tell myself what I’m doing wrong and how to fix it
-tell myself food is for the weak

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